Games Of Infinity

games of infinity

…During some practice of not-doing I found that I am able to hold back a different position of the assemblage point and to experience the two events simultaneously. At that time came to me the one, whom I named Nagual Don Juan Matus. However he also used this name to introduce himself. A dream preceded it, in which he appeared as a very elegantly dressed in a grey suit elderly man, but without any signs of suffering from old age. He felt easy with his body, and he treated the world carefully. In the way he went out of the district of small private buildings and looked around the awe and modesty were felt. He could excel anyone, who was passing by at that moment, in taste and manner of behavior, but he remained unnoticed. His grey hair were cut short, he crossed the street, and we followed to a table in an outdoor café. In appearance he was an example of irreproachability, ability to be here and now, one could feel composure and ingenuousness in him. When a waitress approached, he just asked for a glass of water. I did not dare to look in his eyes and was stealing a glance at him. Then he pointed in the direction of south-east silently, and turning to look there I saw a giant pass to the freedom into INFINITY.

Then he found me in absurd life situations during the day. He laughed at me, when saw how seriously I take the environment. He was shedding honey-amber glowing, and I loved his appearances, when nobody saw him except me. Sometimes he appeared with Don Jenaro. They made such a funny clownery and different tricks, that the real situation developing in the first understanding began to resemble the funeral repast in comparison with the lively mood coming from them. I was not afraid that was going mad, as I had seen the energy for several years already and was conscious, that the world could be conceived in a non-linear way. I knew that INFINITY plays with me, and that everything promotes my waking up.

When I learn to perceive the first attention more remotely, I managed to leave the acquired place easily and relocate to the village near the forest. There Nagual Don Juan Matus taught me many things. So that some time ago I stopped the world and saw that the lines of the light of awareness were passing through everything perceptible for me, I also learn to hold with my attention the cover of amber lightning around me, he taught me how to use a beam or thread of the light. I let the beam go around the body and girded kidneys, liver, pancreas and spleen with it, and the point below the navel – as if horizontally a loop was made and it gathered the organs piercing them. Then from the point below the navel the beam went through the liver to the lungs, and then through the spleen and pancreas again to the navel. It was necessary so as to create a carcass from awareness, in which the inner organs and their moods would not spread during the perception of unknown. Then the beam stretched out from the point below the navel and to the middle of the cocoon and further.


At the moment of visualization of parallel light lines I directed the beam on one of them and tuned at it. The next moment I was contemplating tress growing in the forest as huge bubbles of energy, saw their glowing with bluish-white flashes, knew directly that the assembling point of the trees is very low on their cocoon. The trees stretched their will flows to the amber streams of energy flowing in the earth. The beam of amber luminosity, which Nagual Don Juan Matus painted by leading an open palm along my body crosswise inside each foot, shin, thigh, from the edges of pelvis to the shoulder joints, inside the shoulders and forearms, in each palm, also from sacrum to the elbow, from ears and from eyes girding around every joint in arms, legs, around the neck from the low point of cocoon in middle upwards, in the form of a drop at the level of shoulders above the head and in arches from every essential organ outside. This framework serves several aims simultaneously – accumulation of personal power, equilibration and as a means not to come apart from the power that is rolling over. Later I understood that I can improvise and create ant possible structures inside the cocoon and work immediately with the energy of perception painting magnetic grids, lighting up rings, stretching ribbons, building cones and following the colors in the centers of the strength inside the energetic structure. Till got understood that the execution of exercises of tensegrity in a group of practicing in dreaming for fixation of the point of construction is not interesting.

I became a ball of energy and thought over about something that had already been explained by Nagual Don Juan Matus to his pupil Carlos Castaneda about the vibration inside the cocoon, the vibration, which leads any alive creature to the death.

Practicing constantly the practice of seeing people as shining formations of thinnest light fibers connected with the surrounding world by shining threads, I lost the sense of objective reality, and the world’s picture changed. I saw, that the energy of shining bodies is thin in the city, where I lived before going to the village.

It was the view of a certain alien creature described in the books by Carlos Castaneda and existing in everyone, whom I saw, as a small cluster of energy swinging the flow of power above the head and not letting to power the awareness further above by this that made me to reconsider my life and the ties with my nearest.


I myself had often experienced unexpected rushes of anger and hysterics because any initiatives and creative ideas in their bloom were crushed by an incomprehensible row of absurd life confusions and situations arising as if without any comprehensible reasons. And spiritual creative people pursuing the most harmless aims had only to lose their hearts and inspirations and follow the circumstances suggested by a society, i.e. boring monotonous work and consumption of what is offered to average philistines.

The presence of some pressing power of circumstances and outside of public agreement to tolerate an evil situation and adapt as one can and is able to was felt while I was looking at things in the objective reality.

Now when I saw, the world appeared in all its beauty. In the mind of human beings was a parasite, and it directed the mind, but not only it. The parasite corrected the work of inner organs, stretching tentacles to them. It was becoming clear why people being at the top of improvisation, asking serious questions about their essence and the one of everything, feeling joy and delight from having found strengths in them to go above the routine and everyday life suddenly began to complain on the worsening health and strange illnesses turning them in the channel of grey reality with heavy work, monotonous boring program of life settings requiring the execution for obtaining happiness in the future, but not in the present, not now and here.

The implanting in the vertical flows of the body of energy, clusters arousing anxiety and uneasiness, silly desires which were affirmed quickly by the built-in social consciousness as normal ones also did not deviate from the sight of the inside looker.

And to finish it all through the crack in the horizon in our world penetrate gigantic black shadows which play comfortably in our perception of 3D space and in reality are tiny, but creating the illusion of gigantic black creatures falling on the whole settlements flatways.

Thus, people with inquisitive mind get different religious and philosophic doctrines with the worn out truths for all times and ready answers on all questions. Above the buildings, traffic jams, villages I also saw octopus like creatures controlling with the flows the energy of alive creatures.

On trees, and animals at the moment, when their luminosity flashed, jumped a jumper and after swinging on the flows of energy flew his own way further. They felt as the owners. To some of us were given books about God and invited to the gatherings obtrusively, to the other ones, those who wanted to investigate the nature, were suggested the worn out routes and the lovers to move were given centralized performances and shows with electro-music. At one go masses of people sat to a computer screen.

Having claimed themselves out of any social laws and rules I went there where my free will take me turning into the unbending intent.

This was a small cultured woodland park near the settlement where I lived. I became to live as a savage near the stream where people came for rest. I was sitting in ravines and caves enjoying the fresh air and nature till saw that was covering with the colour of awareness to the edges, i.e. I saw distinctly that the whole cocoon was shedding the honey-amber colour and is covered with smooth brighter amber shell. I understood that together with other tones in the cocoon I lost desires which overwhelmed me in the city and life became more measured and calmer. The time as if slowed down, and every day was having a miracle in it.

The communication with the wood and Earth aroused only the desire to give yourself to travelling on foot wherever you want and the happiness to be able to walk around everything, which was not built-in by people. I enjoyed my travelling at this wonderful time on this amazing planet.

Communicating with the people around I could not but come to the conclusion about their dissatisfaction with life and constant worries about themselves. I got rid of fear of loneliness and of nature.

As if in a fairytale I could call Nagual and his warriors anytime. They were so jovial, cordial, wise and loving the Earth, and telling and showing everything around. And certainly the built-in consciousness left me more often, and to learn advice how to behave impeccably in this or that situation I turned to my amber friends.

Nagual Don Juan Matus taught me how to treat the surrounding world carefully and lead a continuous fight with ego. Watching young people coming to rest on nature I saw that they were thinking about the worsening way they feel and look, and after spending several days on the place of the power they leave as if nothing was interesting for them except making themselves better.

Then I saw that in front of the cocoons there is a thicker plate working as a mirror for perception. People are reflected in their plates and if they do not like the reflection, they worry about it till they manage to regain a good reflection, and they are satisfied with it and leave the place of power, everything else is not important.

Nagual taught me to choose places of power, where the cocoon is rolled by the ring power and I knew that the plate is necessary for the cocoon so as to screen from the view of constantly rolling over power.

On the seminar on TRANSEGRITY in Amsterdam I put on the mask of self-reflection as the second face of built-in consciousness. This sight is not for the weak-nerved. Above kind and calm sleeping human face everyone who met me was something like a film on which were recorded as on the video all the expressions of face for a very long period of time. The impression made me remember horror films about the demons living in people or zombie – the image of the faces as if was moving on the film with a high speed and aroused only one word in the mind, i.e. “dead”. The dead people were alive and turned their hands to those who was holding the seminar, standing on the catwalk, they asked their questions which were in abundance. But there were also those without such a mask. I heard an unpleasant voice tone which betrayed the masks and with all certainty I say to you that this is a mask of death.

During the time that I see energy, I see as the death is following everyone as a black shadow. I see how it approaches when the flows of energy, ribbons of strength of the energetic body become weak. As the clear space of bowl form is deformed and the shell of the cocoon is being eaten. I also see how filled and aware can be the cocoons of warriors. I see how the substance of the grey colour (syntax fog as Don Jenaro called it) does not give to the assembling point to shift.

The way to precept the world directly, see the energy is applied to all alive creatures, not is the privilege of the chosen ones.

Sometimes Don Juan took my double out of me, and they both flew somewhere. Returning to me the double showed what he had time to perceive till was in the company of Don Juan…

How is the perception is made? How does it turn out that the world around lacks a mystery, secret, easiness, grace, does not arouse curiosity, but seems monotonous and boring unbearably? Mechanically repeating? How do we hold the position of the assembling point, when everything is normal?

Once in my life came the particles ringing in the ear and do not disappear now? But I forgot about them for some time…

In my childhood I was taken to the photographer’s studio to take a family photo. I sent a sight to the future for myself and did it on purpose. I remember that I raised my eyes specially and fixed them of the moving in the air and ringing luminous lights, which were seen well in the darkness of the studio, where the photos were taken. They pierced with them everything and I knew well about it and listening to them and contemplating them came to the raised mood and calmed down feeling the presence of a miracle, no matter how it happens in life, everything happens, and it is wonderful, when you perceive something surprisingly alive and well-known.

I knew, that adults and some children do not see them because they do not want, their eyes looked so as if the whole face expressed the damned business with something bloody important. But such adults and children were met in whose faces and eyes another thing can be read, as if they remember and keep the connection with something really important, with a miracle.

After communication with amber Nagual Don Juan Matus, his companions – Don Jenaro Flores, Don Silvio Manuel, Florinda Donner-Grau, Taisha Abelar, Nagual Carlos Castaneda my world returned to the channel, where everything can happen particularly and such a live communication with them in the world of glowing particles and vibrating power, which flows out of any doubts outside our everyday linear time and 3D space.

And I was lucky to meet Nagual Alex Vidis, who having seen how I communicate with the abovementioned magicians from aside, told that I just feed with my energy some clusters of energy taking for me the form of amber magicians, which some time ago could possibly be them themselves.

I still think that have learnt much from them. Let these fairytale clusters of luminosity of our mother Earth, which helped to tune on the dimensions happening with it.

In one of the flights with Don Juan I from the state of the double saw a cocoon of the Earth and its inner emanations – 48 big strips and those 7 of them, which we as human beings can tune. He helped me to see that in that system in which perceive the environment, where everything is becoming smaller on the measure of going away, till does not turn in the points, can be seen absolutely all variants of the situations and actions including any life experience with feelings, thoughts, perception of images, colour, light of any sensory data and time points as the set of self-conscious particles – commands of the Source, which the magicians of its line metaphorically named the Eagle and having united all this in a single energy field we get the conglomeration of energetic fields.

I got rid of anxiety for a while at least and tortures on the cause of choice of the further life situation and understood that one can experience a stress connected with the perception but lying outside the human at all – it gave the feeling of freedom and enlightenment…

The meeting with the Nagual Alex Vidis after some pause in several years, while I was learning in the second attention to Nagual Don Juan Matus turned the Wheel of Time for me and gave a new spiral of knowledge. Using the knowledge about the fact that gathering in a united field the conglomerate of energy fields became a ball of attention free from human, I became let it go on its business, i.e. in infinity to the stars.

During the flight of the ball I could do anything in the first attention without care of going to sleep, as the ball was communicating with me at a distance, wherever it was. My ball enjoyed the free flight and visited all the planets of the solar system and in the Sun using the same threads of light and the power of intention. It jumped to the space, and it liked the company of the same celestial bodies, which resembled it in mood, for example, and had the same smooth shell and thrived for freedom. A group of stars meeting the same characteristics and filled everything with the energy of amber glow was remembered well. This was awareness of kinship and most comfortable feeling, if it can be said about the feeling of the ball of attention.

games of infinity

Here the serious tone of the narration should be interrupted, if someone decided that I am serious. But how is to continue seriously, if a person was taught to be a telescope and his ball of attention flying in this immensity got acquainted with several types of stars and starry systems. It is a whole INFINITY of them here. Only with the difference that I saw them as a magician, saw that stars are creatures capable of perception. These are cocoons and their assembling points, and they themselves are made of luminous particles.

And what happens after the fact that the ball flew through an eye and went out from the mouth of a dragon of fire and dragon of cold so as the attention could be sure that does not depend on temperature and can become close to any type of stars, if they want it. The ball was drawn by the similar to it, to its form and went through the acquaintance and close contact with the stars, which did not have such a smooth shell. Here the play with multidimensional entity “here and now” was seen – at night it is seen that the stars are small and coloured and pull to the eyes and other parts of the body and threads of perception. But if not to focus the eyes, they become clenching and unclenching bubbles of energy of luminous threads, which all can be placed on one line of the universe in the principle of perception bubbles connected with each other by threads and being under the influence of vibrating power, and the small and coloured, scattered on the whole sky are on another one.

My double with the frame of amber beam piercing the whole cocoon and connected with the structure aware and capable to sustain an onset of huge strips of emanation, which go as endless number of ribbons of power, rows of likenesses of the Dark Sea of Awareness, where the stars from line to line change as a principle and to every line one by one the double power the beam coming from the centre of his body. And the looking and doing daily routine person, and it all is simultaneous with the flight of the ball approaching the gigantic celestial bodies investigating their colour of mood flows, their companions and opening their projections on them, the projections for which there are no words.


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